Unbearable Suffering: A Personal Battle With the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome
It was a dreary Monday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a educator, attempting to manage a new class, when a sharp pain sprang behind my right eye. It was followed by rapid stabs, like lightning bolts. As the school day came and went, the discomfort eased and then came back with increased intensity. Four times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with worksheets and hurried to the school bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I took ibuprofen, but the agony remained unbearable.
The headaches returned frequently that autumn, and once more in the spring, soon forming an annual cycle. September and October were the most severe, then February and March. I could anticipate the pattern: a warning sensation in the morning, early pangs on the train, full-on agony in the classroom by mid-morning. In late 2019, a doctor finally sent me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.
This condition typically start with intense pain behind one eye that persists up to several hours.
Approximately 1 in 1000 individuals are affected by the disorder, and men are more frequently affected. Cluster headaches typically start with sudden, severe pain focused on a single eye that peaks within minutes and lasts for as long as three hours. Episodes come in clusters, daily or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or facial perspiration. There exists an episodic type, which occurs in seasonal cycles; others have continuous attacks, characterized by the lack of extended pain-free periods.
What unites patients is the intensity. One research paper rated the sensation at 9.7 10, more severe than bone fractures or other conditions. Another discovered a significant percentage of cluster patients reported thoughts of self-harm during attacks; the figure fell to four percent when they were pain-free.
One patient, 74, a chronic patient from Wales, isn't surprised. Her attacks began when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the ground and hit my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through childhood. Alcohol in her teens, similar to many causes, made things worse. After drinking alcohol at her graduation party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the bus home.
Her relatives often interpreted her episodes as intoxicated episodes. Understanding eventually came from her father and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after moving, but often hid her condition. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to time off during attacks. Her definitive identification came in the early 2000s at a national neurology center.
Nevertheless, the failure to organize daily activities around unpredictable pain took its effect. She particularly hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her children during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the small freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.
Headaches have been documented across history. “The earliest description of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write experts in a book on the topic. They attributed the ailment to an evil spirit who afflicted his victims' heads.
Historical healing texts propose bizarre treatments for what some observers would classify as a migraine. In the medieval times, migraine was recognised as a distinct disorder, with therapies including herbal concoctions to other, more folk remedies.
It was a European physician who provided the initial detailed description of a cluster headache. In his writings, he describes a patient “suffering with a very severe headache occurring and disappearing daily at fixed hours”.
The disorder were only officially classified by global headache committees in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a key blood vessel which delivers blood to the brain. Leading specialists in treating the condition note this.
In the late 1990s, scientists published the results of a study for which they had induced attacks in patients and observed the episodes in a brain scanner. The results, featured in a prominent medical publication, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they recovered.
In spite of such progress, identification remains slow. Jamie Charteris's attacks began in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he had four surgeries before eventually being correctly identified in recently, after a doctor looked up his symptoms.
Specialists say wait times in diagnosis and managing occur because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're tired and low, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He proceeds by ruling out other primary headache disorders, such as migraine, before diagnosing the disorder. A detailed history is crucial: on which side do symptoms appear? For how much time? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Certain features such as tearing, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be sent to specialist clinics. But many first go to A&E or are given inadequate therapies.
Dorothy Chapman, 78, has experienced cluster headaches for most of her life, although she has been free from an attack since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars extracted because dentists misinterpreted her pain. She believes the dental profession still need much more education. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was she who responded. I remember calling a support line during an attack in 2021; a reassuring volunteer guided them through oxygen therapy and medication until the attack passed.
Official guidance on management advise that patients are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a anti-migraine drug delivered by nasal spray. No tablets or opioids should be used. Preventive options include a blood pressure medication, which apparently soothes the attacks of some individuals.
But consultant specialists argue the official guidelines need updating to reflect a clearer clinical process and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, timing is everything: “The duration of the bout determines the treatment.” Brief cycles with occasional attacks are handled with acute treatment only. More prolonged or more severe periods require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with steroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an procedure into the area of the head where the pain is that decreases nerve signals.
The national guidelines need revising to reflect a